I Used To Be

I used to be
a young naive child
beaming cherub model student
chubby innocent destiny

now, loner
displeased, between two extremes
within a clique so insignificant
everything is fading this year

tainted, white overladen
with black
the stripes down my road of life
black, white, black, white again
and again

I used to be...
I've lost that dream
that made it so real
I draw a flower so black
no matter how much i colour red
I know what is wrong
It's me